massive update <33 

 a poem i wrote in mid 05'

Sweet Deceptions

Through the happiness I've been denied,

Along with all the tears we've cried,

Reminiscing of the memories we shared,

Despite all that,

I hope you know I cared.

Behind those practiced smiles,

Underneath those plastic grins,

Lie the dark secrets in life.

Blind impulse,

Shattered dreams,

Hidden frowns,

From deep within a broken soul

Shaking, shuddering with unseen fear.

I've nowhere to hide.

So broken inside.

Hollow sighs, mournful cries,

It's my blood fighting against me.

Betraying my mind.,

Infidelity,

Self defunct.

I don't care,

I rather not know.

Drown me in sweet Deception,

The magnetizing lies,

So delicately enticing.

The unspoken words,

Keep them all bottled up inside,

until the day I die.

Wanting to flee,

Now take me away,

Relieve my consciousness.

Obliterate the pain,

As my senses begins to fog.

Bury my ferocious agony,

Bury all the clinging pains,

It's the essence flowing in my veins.

I'd rather die

Believing in your beautiful lies.

06' Summer!

so many ups n downs.. so many people people left:(((( everytime when i think about this i feel like my eyes are getting watery again...crazayyy night outs..the sunshine...farewells..boat parties.. spending time with my baobeiz..SAT classes-_-...working.... but then overall it was a blast!!!

thank you to all my lovelies who made this  summer so memorable:) how am i suppose to live without you guys..smooochie oochiee booochie <33

iona

mayda et stef et jos et moi

dinnner @ times square ,,,,,awww half of the people in the pic are gone :(((((

huh who is this?

stephie humpty's farewell @ fat angelos

ochi  x virg x nat x steph x moi x caroline

ton x moi x shea x lor (  lemme see your 1, 2 step blah blahblahblahblah..!! hahaha girl ure so adorable when your tipsy)

moi  x lizzzie baby cookie crumbs x ariel   @ rbt                   baby cookies crumbs i know life in canada mayb really isnt that great, but just hang in there for just a lil while more okie? only less than 50 days to go we can all be united again=) i cant wait till that moment..no matter wut happens.. remember we are all waiting for u here in the 852 and we all love you heaps okie? MUUUUUUUAH <3   (squishiest huggies ever)

tim x stephie humptie cutie x yeeeee tingting

dinner in wanchai

joyce's farewell dinnnerrr

chester is fuuuuuucccked hehehe   x    sexay doris    x moi

doris et moi @ volar                                                    shibz et half of matty in tst

moi et joanna et dorothy

inaa et jermaine

elson et joey @ chui wa        

chris @ chui wa

inaaa et rania et moi et danny

moi et ina et rania et danny et jeff @ volarrrr

joyce farewell dinner at balalaika          joyce x jos x moi x nat

sending kelvin to the airport ><  

see how much we love you kelvin!  hahah we wanted to write you something so bad that we used my eyeliner!

dinner at pokka cafe with salem fiona sarah david john and kp

dennymark x moi

chilling at rania's place with inaa, joey and chloe

 rohan x moi x gary

ariel x jason x kp x moi

ricz x ethel x julian x moi x ariel

julian x ricz x ethel x moi

jules et ricz heheeheh so cute

jess et ina et moi et rania baby booo x5 et stef

nat x moi

rania x inaa(the sweetest korean girl on earth i swear) x moi x jess on stage

me smooooching my baby boo boo boo boo boo! babygirl i miss you so much we had so crazy fun this summer..u better be back for christmas! muah muah

moi et nat k et doris   grrr cell fone quarlity

 Sarah's birthday

salem et moi thank you so much that night

back: albert attempting to fly.. again! :P

middle: david, sarah awwwwww, lily , salem

 monique's birthday

hehe yau leng lui sek ngo

monique jo mud ah? hahah atif looked scared

some girls x gary x me   gary pimping..again :P                                       atif x moi x monique

moi x atif

chilling at john's place after mooch party

hahaahaha joe albert et moi on the couch hahahhaha

moi et bettty boop

moi et ivan @ admiralty    yeee i wished i went to sai kung with you guys that night ><

HENRICKK et moi in mtr

 jesse.. met you when i was a kid..we've had so many beautiful and crazy memories together ( oh my god those times with mie and may too!) that i can never ever forget.im sorry bout wut happened this summer im sorry i didnt spend much time with u and that our timetable always seems to conflict with each other..girl i truly wish i could have seen you more this summer:"( i love you and miss you beaucoup see you in easter <333

moi  et ida

Noti

fiona et moi                leng luiiii

stepho et moi    you look beautiful that night hun

moi et ochi

salem et moi et sarah

haley et kp et moi

nat et moi on albys boat omg i kept losing i drank so much that night!

moi et kp looked so serious

leng luiz   nat et moe et petrinaanananananananananana :)  on alby's boat

teresa et jovay et moi

sallys handwriting is so yucky.. baobei i love you really and you know that.

stage make up presentation    joel et moi

shibbbbz

claudia x lor x steph the marie x moi x nat k x mark and nat l at the back @ the pre halloween bash  

owen u suck at taking pictures ..:P

suz et baby coockie crumbs et moi @ times square

taruuuun ure baked againn heheh u need to come home this christmas puh leeese

okay i know this is kinda random.. but.... I MISS YOU aaron!!!!!!

and oh yea

EVERYONE

GO GET

FACEBOOOK!!

sally baobei wo hao xiang ni...zen me ni never go online  i was looking at the pics we took together just now and my eyes were getting moist..zen me ban..hao bu xi guan mei yo ni zai wo shen bian..  everythings so different without chu here with me..wo men sen ge mei yo le ni , zhi sheng xia me & Tree liang ge..you shi hou jue de hao ji mo, hao gu du...jue de hao she qu le shen me.. babygirl wo zhen de hao xiang ni..i dont know how to put my feelings into words ..please come home soon baobei .. no matter how far we part, you will still always be in my heart.

first of alll, heres a shoutie to Derek

you have no idea how sad i am right now as im writing this... i still cant believe the fact that you have left already..boi ima miss you SO much...and your beyonce ass HAHAHA in the past two years lots of shit have happened..still remember on the very first day i saw you i thought u were pretty cute.. What have happened to you??!! just messin ;P ...you know i luuurve you really  thank you fo being sucha great friend all along...thank you fo always being there fo me..holding me close while watching scary movies making me feel safe..lending me your shoulders wen im sad...your locker..the park..taking my bag to dryclean (AHEM! :P) ima miss those times heaps.. have a fab time in LA!!... i love you and i will miss you always...<3

AARON i havent seen fo WAY too long.. miss you..........:(

www.xanga.com/aaronwong

wo he wo de BaoBei :)

moi x ethel x wing

nabeel x gary x moi in a cab to tribeca

chi kin x moi x zoey's puppy x ollie @ Da Soul

ollie x moi x avis   my legs are so much darker than my tummy!

philippines trip with my BaoBeiz

moi et nate

mish yooh  Baby Mon <3   a month till ur home..

fiona x salem x moi x jon

bak chee jai

luiji x SUMI a.k.a. ALBY  

moi x sarah/ moi x LIN ZHI LING x joe

nat x salem x fiona x moi x jason

me x jon walking to sahara

fiona so cute! x sarah x kp & moi reading sarah's lyrics, kp trying HARD to understand eventho i think he really cant.

 luke!! good to see you again =)

petrina x  xiangy x moi

luiji x jon haha ho duk yeee

show@ edge   Lady S x lo J. x leo

moi x fiona x sarah x kp x jon x salem

hawt mamas ....salem you know how bad i wanted to just take YOUR skirt off that night? dam i wish i could get it in hk

everyone except kp

salem x fiona x joe x moi x sarah

ricz x ethel x alan x moi

OMG HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

<33

              oh i just luurve summer <3

ron shea iona                                  

 smoochies <3

HHAHAHA  iona getting too exited because ariel was about to kiss her/

stef  et ariel et virg et moi et kelly et ollie..how come everyone are posing but i look so random-_-

shea et nat et ariel sexayy

shea et moi <3

iona x ariel being sooooo cute!!

alan et ethel et moi                           dave et virg et moi

virg et moi et sarah

leng jai et ethel et moi

ethel et moi et chester

aww gary kissing my name   i LURVE you gary!! =))

nate et amanda et moi@ c club

hahahah moi et denmark@ babyghetto! LOL

can u spot me and sam? :P

riz et moi

sam et roshayyyyy <3

had sooo much fun during easter breakk..CANT WAIT TILL SUMMER! caz someone special is coming back

ima hit my bed now sooo sleeeepy..=)

x